No air air

Worked out this morning..yay..its sporadic but hopefully helps..lol..i always feel better when I do work out! Its Monday again..the weekend was uneventful..to hot inside (no air air) and to hot outside. So ya life sucks right now..but it will get better. Im having popcorn and Raisins for breakfast..lol trying to be good not sure how long I can stomach raisins..im pretending they are chocolate..i dont think im fooling anyone! haha.

Thursday..yay!

It is Thursday already..week has gone by pretty fast! ..My house is still hot..around 90 degrees on a good day..but I think Im getting use to it..becasue when I come to work and its like 70 and I freeze..LOL..burr bunnies.

been a while

Hi all..its been a while since I posted..but thought I would start up again..Im having issues today with being nice to a person who really treated me like crap for a long time..but for my step daughters sake I am being nice..even though I want to punch a wall out or something..being a step parent is one of the hardest jobs..especially when you love the kids so much..like your own..and the real parent gets all the love..I know Im liked..maybe a little loved..but anyways..it hurts. My home is HOT..not warm..not uncomfortable..its full blown HOT>.sucks bad..oh well thats life..lately thats how life has been..sucky. No worries :)

FRIDAY

its Friday! yay! ...I was looking in the mirror today..and Im thinking my arms looks like Guy arms!!..they are big..and bulky and i dont like them..my whole body big and bulky but my arms are the worste..oh well just another flaw my body has..I will never be perfect..but I can sure gripe about it! :)

Half way Thru

Wow its Wed..this is a good thing..this week has been crazy~ish..but nothing I cant handle..get to go get my ear checked out today..hopefully nothing to bad wrong with it..other than not hearing out of it..its great! :)

Monday

my new approach on Mondays is I dont give a damn day..it has worked out well today..wow..everything just rolls off me and I smile..and silently fly the finger..its great! lol..Today hasnt really been bad at all..kept busy and just a little while left to go. Maybe i will keep this attitude all week!! :)

Thursday:)

It has been a tough week..but not to horrible. I survived and its almost Friday! yay..This week a year ago my Dad died..just seems like yesterday..and still hurts the same, love you dad!..

Well just when you think you are doing a good job..and life is good..someone comes slaps you in the face and brings you back to reality. We have an auditor in our office this past week and this week..he has picked out so many mistakes I am making..little stupid ones..the ones that make you go DOH! ...what was I thinking? So today I am trying to take accountabilty and quit being so careless..its hard..Im so worried about everything I do now...so..how do I build my confidence up from here? I feel kinda stupid at the moment..and this is not a good thing! Hope this week goes by fast!

Friday!

Its Friday yippee..life not so great right now..but really don't have anything to complain about..I just need to not worry and be happy..its hard but I'm going to do it. ! I'm wearing "super model" I'm hopping it makes me feel like one! haha..fierce! :)

May Day

Its the first day of May and the 30lbs I started out to lose January 1st..still here..geez why cant I get my butt in gear? I want to be thin..I like to be thin..but I think I love Chocolate and Food in general way to much! lol and Im getting older..and well I have a bunch of excuses..I will look fabulous..and will wear shorts before the summer is over..I will I will I will

ugh

Ok life sucks right now..no air in the house..and my hubbys transmission is out..GREAT...oh well whatcha going to do? Cry? did that..didnt help and it just gave me a headache..

back from Vaca

Hey Im back from Vaca..it was nice to be gone..but actually its nice to be back! :) We had fun..went to zoo..and just hung out together..sometimes that is the best times..Well its Monday..and a bit crazy..but gotta love it..hopefully i have this attitude come Friday :)

The final countdown

2 more days..I can do it..had a horrible headache since about 2 this morning...ugh..feel a little better..still hanging around a little...but no worries. :) Today is my sweeties Birthday! Happy Birthday John! He doesnt look a day older and certainly doesnt act it..lol..!

HumpDay

Wow..Wed already..this is week is going by faster than I thought it would...this is a GOOD THING.. didn't work out this morning...(its ok Jackie:)) slept til like 710 and surprisingly I look good..feel good..so going to be a good day!! 2 more days til a little freedom! yay!

No Negativity Tuesday

No Negative vibes today...I will not wish ill will on anyone today..no matter what...HEH..If I had super powers I prob would have already disintegrated someone..so thank God I don't! lol..why does one person always make u feel less of a human..well I have decided not to give her that power any longer..:) And..My good friend Jay got to go see my man Bon Jovi last night and he seen Tony Romo..my other man..geez..what the heck?

Wow Forgot Friday! :o

its Monday..yay..i can say this because..I start VACA next week..I am so happy..so this week is a piece of cake! no worries. It better warm up though..it has been to cold! ..if its warm it reminds me that I want to be thin..when its cold I could care less!! heh..crazy how that works...

bad hair day

Rain Rain go away...well actually i kinda like it..would like it so much more if I was at home..but oh well gotta pay the bills! Nothing like April weather in Oklahoma..gotta love it! :) Didn't workout this morning..slept in..it was nice! don't feel to bad, but hungry! Always hungry..I wonder why that is?..I think i have a HUGE stomach..and is use to being fed when ever it growls at me..I have been trying to tame this monster but he keeps coming back for more..I will try and not give in to the growling..heh!

humpty dumpty day..

Its Wed..yay! half way thru..:) My favorite diet drink right now is Diet Cherry Chocolate Dr. Pepper..I love this clever concoction!! it is good..i like AlOT! going to try and stay busy All day today..lets see how long that will last..heh!

happy happy joy joy??

OK hard to admit but its hard to stay positive and happy all the time! I know because I try..but gosh sometimes life just happens and it gets you thinking why be happy?..but then I think why not?? Whats more enjoying..being sad and depressed or just smiling and being happy..I chose joy..as hard as it is to be happy its harder to stay sad! Life happens and we chose how to handle it..I hope I have the strength to keep joy in my heart...its hard..but this to shall pass. So when I'm sad or grumpy or yelling at my husband I will try and stop myself and chose to be happy. ..this is going to be tough! lol

Wonderful Week

I have decided to have a wonderful week no matter what!...happy happy joy joy! I did work out this morning..thanks to Jackie..if not for her I would prob just go on sleeping..and complaining about being fat..heh. So everyone have a wonderful week and don't worry be happy!! (especially you TInA Louise!!

fast week

Wow this week has flown..prob cause I only worked half a day Tuesday and Thursday..very nice..but I didnt work out any! (sorry Jackie) but still not a bad week..it is Friday and the weekend awaits!!! :)

sad

Today is Johns grandmothers funeral..its rainy and foggy and just a "funeral" day...I really really hate going to funerals..I know everyone does..but I litterally get sick and horrible feeling..I think after Lisa my oldest sister died I got this phobia..and then Dad..I think it brings back all of those feeling that I try and not think about EVERY day..its hard..for anyone. I want to be there for John though..

middle of the week

Its Wed..Im at work..not feeling great but not feeling to bad. Not much to say today..

sick

Im not feeling to good today..came to work late..didnt work out and my head feels like it weighs 100lbs..ugh! but No worries..just got to work thru it...

falalalalalalalala

Monday yet again..ugh..and I have a cold! ..my head is stuffy..and I feel just bad enough to be a bit miserable..but not bad enough to not work! lol..OH Well..I could be like everyone else in this office and take off when you sneeze or cough...wimps! Johns Grandmother died last nite..sad..she had fought diabetes and Alzheimer's for a while..tough woman..John is sad because its like all of his family is gone..I feel bad for him! Hopefully the rest of the week wont be so bad.

last Friday of March

Oh My gosh..its already the last weekend in March..and My thighs are still rubbing together! I really need to get serious! But other than that its going to be a great day! its Friday! whooohooo...heh...this week has flown by..i can say that now its Friday..now if it was Wed. it would seem to be crawling. Hope everyone has a fun safe weekend! :)

BE~utiful

It is going to be absolutely beautiful today...but i will miss it..in my broom closet..have to say though..loving my hair..i feel like myself again! :) Worked out hard this morning..its good! Almost Friday! Yay!

blonde

I get my hair done today..yay! the roots are horrible..Im use to just doing it myself and was so tempted to do it but Kara poo would have killed me..and I like living..heh! :) I want to go Super blonde! but others have issues about this! lol...I will just stay the way I am..plain jane..ugh!! heh.

Almost April!

Oh my gosh..I cannot believe its almost April already!..i had planned to be thin by April..what the heck?? LOL..well there is always May. I want to wear cute clothes this summer..I will do it!. Worked out again this morning..good start! It stayed light til like 8 last night..love it..makes you want to go cook out or something..:) again food is a big part of my life..lol. Jackie watched a show that said if you sit down concentrate just on your food..close your eyes and eat you can lose weight..well I would lose weight because if my eyes are closed I wont see my food to eat! yay..sounds good to me! :) hehe.

Monday is my Friend! :)

This past weekend was Easter weekend..somehow when you are younger it seems to be so much more exciting..it came and went and I didn't see one Easter Bunny! ..I didn't even eat chocolate! OMG now that is crazy. I did pray and give thanks..:) I also realized this weekend I am not ever going to be 29 again..never going to look 29 again this made me sad looking in the mirror..i see all these fine lines popping up and it scares me. I also realized that no one is going to think I'm as beautiful as my sweet loving husband ..he makes me feel like I'm the most beautiful woman in the world..he is a wonderful man :) Well its Monday again and I'm going to have a great week no matter what! Jackie and I worked out this morning..this is a good thing..maybe I can make it all week! lol..i will try at least..and its going to be soooo nice this week! another thing to look forward to!!! Life is good and I'm not letting it be any other way..so lets make this week Positive week..if one person says anything negative..correct them ..let them know how Wonderful life is! :) be the one to "pay it forward"

Good Friday

I think every Friday is good..never really a bad Friday. Its going to be nice today..then cold over the weekend..this is not fair! Just gives me a reason to stay in bed a little longer on Saturday morning and watch 90210..heh..love that show. MY friend J is going to be gone all week next week..this sucks because i will have no one to talk to on line ..what will I do??????? :0 Well hoping my day flies by today really fast and the weekend goes by really slow. Happy Easter everyone!! :)

SPRING

Yay its spring...officially time to kick butt and lose some weight..cant wear jackets very much longer to hide my fattness...so ya. Its going to be beautiful today..to pretty to be locked in a broom closet..but thats my life. It is Thursday..this is a good thing! :) Life is good

almost spring

Tomorrow is spring! yay! love spring...love warm..except for my airconditioning is going to cost me a fortune to fix! this does not make me happy..but then I think if this is the biggest problem I have in my life right now then Im doing pretty darn good...Looking on the bright side..one of my friends made me start thinking this way! Thanks Jack! :) I hope I can return the favor some day..anytime ..you know it! The moon was incredible this morning...I know this because I actually got up and worked out..(by myself) :( it was good though..makes me more easy to be around during the day..heh! Im getting really good at tuning people out..Love it..just let it roll right off of me..its GOOD :)

rain

Its raining today..very nice..would be a good day to stay at home..in bed or cleaning or watching tv..anything but work..they have installed new cameras in our office..why? Im really not sure..to try and catch me working purhaps? That prob wont happen..its as rare as bigfoot! ha..i kid! I work hard...at not working LOL..:) seriously what the heck? lol Big brother watching us? its crazy...im back to popcorn..oatmeal and a occasional snack..I was looking at my bod in the mirror last night..(like most nights) and it really made me sad and disgusted..my legs look like they belong on someone else...is that really me??? And as I was telling myself how bad I am to let it get to this John comes and scoops me up and tells me how beautiful I am..aww..now that is true love huh? :)

Luck of the Irish..

Happy St. Patricks day! whoohoo..we all should get this day off..to help celebrate with green beer..and whatnot..it could happen. Its scary dark outside..could storm at anytime..scary! lol..maybe it will get so bad we all have to go home..can ya tell I dont want to be here today?

Life is good

Its Friday! Yippee~...today I will not be intimidated by the Helenator...I will smile and fly the finger only when provoked..and I will keep all of my thoughts to myself! heh..so far so good!

Patience

Well I'm working this morning..so this means I didn't win the 200mil lotto..to bad..because I have already spent most of it..hope the bill collectors understand..heh! I am also fat this morning..I enjoyed and over indulged in a lovely meal from Red Lobster last night..it was good..but I was so not feeling good after I ate..so much food..my bod went into shock! ugh! It was a Rolaids nite!. We first tried to go to the Olive Garden..on a Wed. night there was still a 30 minute Waite! what the heck! and if you know me at all I HAVE NO PATIENCE...John is like its ok lets just hang out and enjoy..I was the party pooper and couldn't Waite..so Red Lobster got our business...I feel a little bad about not waiting..(note to self: have more patience..) before long I will have a whole brain full of notes to self..so the word of the day today is patience..when ever anyone says it run around and scream!!!...heh..

is it Friday!?

long week..Im stuggling with this week...I would like to just retire..and live happily ever after..cant do that while I am working..HEH.

Holy Moly

This morning..I worked out, showered, and was dressed by seven..so with all this free time before work I ventured to Wal-Mart (the devil) I never go to Wal-Mart..but WalGreens dont open til 8 and I was in the shopping mode..note to self..never go to walmart when Im in the shopping mode..30 minutes later I walk out $100. poorer..but I have fabulous stuff..the new must have face cream..lotion..the 100pak tampons..lord knows those will come in handy..heh and not sure what else..What the heck!?? could this all come to $100 bucks??..i was shocked and amazed...lol..Im sure John may feel different..nothing that a lap dance wont cure.. :P

Hello

Monday again..geez how time flies when you are having fun!..my days off went so fast they are a blurr...why does time go by so fast when you are off..and it crawls when you are at work..it should be the other way around...oh well..gotta enjoy it while you have it I supose. My arms are so sore today from raking leaves yesterday..the weather is so pretty..getting spring fever more and more every day.! :)

Wed Already

Wow this week has flown by for me...could be because I am off tomorrow and Friday! whoohoo this makes me happy! On my way to work this morning I was listening to way back Wednesday..all 80s and early 90 music..my favorite..I love the 80s...ahh memories. :) Time flies by way to fast..

Tuesday..

Nothing to good about Tuesdays other than they are not Mondays! :) we have a "specialist" coming in today going to show us how to do our jobs better..hmm..wonder if he knows how to get a 700 on solitaire?..or how to procrastinate just a little better than I do..cant waite to get some good tips! maybe he will be cute!

Monday

Monday Monday...its snowing today...nice..the weekend was like 70 degrees and today is freezing..Oklahoma is great!..lol..worked out this morning..almost called in but I was afraid of Jackie..(haha) ..Jackie is good for me! :P

Everyone sick in office..I have used a gallon of hand sanitezer just this morning..dont want it..even though..a little stomach flu may be good for the diet..(yes I am messed up in the head)!

Its FRIDAY...life is good.. didnt work out and really dont feel to bad about it ..until i look in the mirror at these gigantic thighs! oh well..not worrying about it today..going to be a beautiful day and I feel good! :) Isnt it weird how someone was your good friend..like a mother..then things change and you lose touch..then 8 years later they come back into your life and its like nothing has changed? Its weird how it didnt feel that long ..

Almost Friday

I like Thursdays..dont know why just do. There is alot of sickness going around right now..im thinking on invinting a bubble..one you just zip into until the sick people get well..then just unzip and throw away..that would stop alot of the passing of germs..dont ya think? lol..My honey is sick..I have turned into the Germ Terminator..I use a whole bottle of Lysol almost every day..you would think no germs could live thru that..but evidentely they did..ugh! Im overdosing on hand sanitisor..(sp?) oh and I played the lotto..Still not a millionaire..but the pot is up to like 150mil..woohoo..looking foward to that..heh..I would give the finger to my job and run far far away..dreaming is good! :)

Hump day

I feel ugly today..so going to be a long day..Im having a day where I just want to work crank the music and tune everyone out..i hope they all understand! lol..do you ever have those days where you would just rather not talk? I did work out this morning..yay! maybe burned off one pepperoni off the two slices of pizza I devoured yesterday..and the cinnamon stick..and the 6 girlscout cookies ..and the pringles...and the peanutbutter...heh. It was a good day! :) Going to get creative today and clean out all my filing cabinets..organize..maybe that will help my day go by faster..

Tuesday

Starting a blog just seemed the right thing to do..if you know me..I dont talk much..well that is in person..just not a talker..now get me on the phone..tex me.. or email me I will talk to you all day long..why is that? Im really not sure..I am a shy person..(heh) ...I do have issues! haha. Ok so Im going to talk randomly day to day about stuff I have on my mind..and all names will be changed to protect the innocent..or the not so innocent...and please send me comments on what ya think..or not..what ever ..

So Today didnt start out so good..I didnt get my fat butt up to workout..enjoyed sleeping in..but does nothing for the bod! Note to self..no more sleeping in! Jack..(my good friend and workout buddy) is really good for me..if it wasnt for her I would weight about 500lbs..because I have a love affair with food..all kinds of food..Chocolate mainly..but I do eat other stuff..so thus I have to workout..to atleast keep from looking to hipo~ish..my loving , sweet, adorable husband finds nothing wrong with me ..thinks im perfect..And as some of you may know IM far from perfect but it helps to have him say it to me every day..I do appreciate him muchly! Ok enough for today..I will have more tomorrow..please keep reading ! :)